the doctor is tired - i_am_a_cylon

FIC: Looking out on the day

INCEPTION FIC. We all knew it was gonna happen, right?

Looking out on the day
Pairing: Arthur/Eames
Word count: 1,527
Rating: PG-13 (use of F-word)
Disclaimer: Do not own. Wish I did, though.
Notes: Haven't written fic at all in over a year. Just playing a little in Chris Nolan's world, and getting inspired again. Title/cut text from Gorillaz' On Melancholy Hill.
Summary: One of the, too many, downsides of Arthur's line of work is that he doesn't dream.

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fic: tempted by the rest - part 1

tempted by the rest
Jon/Brendon (background Ryan/Spencer and Pete/Patrick, plus some Bill Beckett and Tom Conrad) | ~7,800 | PG-13
Summary: Brendon is not gay. College/barista AU (aren't they all?)
Notes: This is just for fun. The boys are too adorable not to play with. Title and cut text from Summer Camp's Play it by ear. In two parts because LJ hates me.

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the doctor is tired - i_am_a_cylon

why yes, I am listening to UB40.

I suck at updating. End of story.

Many new things going on. Except not really. Am struggling to study for my exam the 15th and trying to find an apartment before I start at the new school. Didn't want a dormroom before, but am actually warming to the idea. It would be kind of nice to be close to other people since I know practically no one in town. Just got word today that my best guyfriend has decided to go to the same school! Thank god. I've known this guy my whole life so it will be so good to have him in the same town as me, even if we're not the kind of friends who hang out every day, or even every month. That guy's one of my best friends.

Also, how about the new songs? I will not be choosing between Panic and the Young Veins (which I just spelled Vines because I'm senile), because I don't feel like I should have to. And they aren't even in the same genre! No reason to make a fuss. I'm really trying here, and as I said to BFF earlier: They're both getting me in the divorce. New Perspective is more my current taste, and it's so powerful. Brendon's voice is one of the best in the business, his and Patrick's are my favorites ever, and his and Spencer's lyrics really work. That was actually my biggest worry about Ryan leaving, cause sure, Brendon's voice is with Panic, but what good is an amazing voice if the words it's singing are shit? No worries, no worries. They've got it covered.

From what I can hear of Change, the lyrics are really good. Ryan's a great lyricist, I've always thought so, and he's found a way to incorporate them into this new style, this new band that I feel he and Jon are really brave to be starting in the first place. It does sound like a typical Beatles song music-wise, but I see no wrong in that. Work it, guys.

Tomorrow: gym, then work. Also, must remember that if I keep eating loads of unhealthy stuff, there's no point in going to the gym.
the doctor is tired - i_am_a_cylon

ranty fia is ranty.

Okay, so. At this point it feels weird to even keep yabbering about the Panic non-breakup. I'm freaked out by change, always will be, and this is a big change. These past four years Panic has become a band that I always turn to to feel good. I travelled eight hours in a sweaty bus, got pneumonia and almost passed out to see one of their shows. That it was worth it and that I'd do it again tomorrow is a testament to how much they mean to me.

That said, this is me being selfish. To Jon and Ryan and Brendon and Spencer, this has most likely been planned for a good long while. It has been dealt with, they're on good terms, this is just life. This band got together when they were teenagers, who can say that they have the exact same job now as they did when they were sixteen? Who has the exact same taste in music? Who knows who they want to be and what they want to do at that age?

My friend asked me today if I'd rather Jon hadn't joined Panic, if it had meant that this didn't happen. The honest answer is no, because Jon 
has brought so much to the table and he isn't the problem. There isn't a problem, in my opinion. People grow up, they grow apart, they get new ambitions and aspirations and shit happens.

So to the original Panic: thanks for two amazing albums, four amazing years, an amazing show, and a really good time.

Let's get on with the show, people.

the doctor is tired - i_am_a_cylon


This freaks me out. It freaks me out in ways that I really don't want to think about, and I have no idea if it's because I try to ignore these sides of someone I somehow looks up to, or if I see too much of myself in it.